013 - Doubt?

Ehhh..

HAPPY VALENTINES?

I don't really celebrate valentines but I try to draw something every year for my dA account anyway. :P

Well, particularly because I don't have anyone to celebrate it with and even if I did have a boyfriend I would think valentines as a stupid thing to do.

But! I'm not against it. Cause I would celebrate it for the fun of it. :D

Well to whoever that has a partner. I hope you two prosper ..and please do not cheat on your gf/bf.:P hahaa. And to those who likes someone..I can't say go for it cause if I liked someone I would be too much of a coward to go forward and tell the person I like him. ^^ll I takut semua benda ni. Tu lahh..

So yeah, for the past few days..I have been doing my devotion time. (If you're not interested then you can leave if you want to. Not everyone is open about religious stuff eh?)

Matthew 6:25-34

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? ²⁶Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ²⁷Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?

²⁸"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. ²⁹Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. ³⁰If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? ³¹So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' ³²For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. ³³But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. ³⁴Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

This has been shown 3 times to me in the last 2 weeks. The first time it struck me during a message in the church my family was visiting. It wasn't a shocking thing cause I've read it before but i responded to these words. Somehow, I knew this was what I needed. Being the usual ME. I did not care much.

Later on in the week, I came across it during devotion. I printed some daily devotion sheets from the internet. And, I was excited to start off this new year with a fresh start. And on one of the days was focused on this passage. Again.

Last Sunday, the pastor in Subi church mentioned a bit of this verse. *ouch! Whut the hell is this?!*=O

And so, I did apply some of this teaching into life but..busyness kept me away. Two days ago, I started reading this book called "The Relationship Principles of Jesus" . It's like a 40 day book kinda thing. 1 chapter per day. I was drawn to this book..BUT. My sister was using it as well..and yeah, I managed to convince her to let me use it. Hehe

Then, yesterday...I got on to the 2nd chapter and there it was! The main focus of the chapter... Verse to remember: Matthew6:25-..etc. I was gobsmacked. And amazed.

I like that book...=) The second chapter talked about our priorities in life. I gave a thought about it and...well, I learned alot. I don't believe what the book says but the evidence of the bible. And I learned that some things I need to lay it down. My worries and stuff. worries about relationships..and who I know. And that if I just focus on my relationship with God, everything will go as plan according to Him. (like destiny! haha)

Just an hour ago I was frantically looking at my msn contacts. I searched on Youtube how to see who was blocking you. And, I tried it out. And ...the results..weren't very pleasing. Then , the doubt in me just grew. The full trust I always had on people seem to be wearing off. I scolded myself "Why?! Why the hell am I doing this?" And just while typing this...It occurred to me..

I should just stop worrying. And believe and practice. =]

I am sorry if you read that an don't like it. My apologies..yep? No hard feelings. It's how I feel..One way I can write what I think in life so that I won't have to tell people. =)