099 - Coward I am

Tonight's drive was long.

Down the road, was it the driver?

Lids closing, I'm scared.

For the first time I wished I didn't meet them.

I don't know where I am.

The sea did not impress me

Not even with its shining lights

And even when it was so bright,

It did not drive my fear away;

No, it didn't. My fear stayed.

This fear was like a monster,

Creeping in, what do I do?

I'm scared, I'm silent

I feel the butterflies flying

Flapping their wings without even trying.

No word was said, I wanted to sway

Away. Away. Away.

I don't want to stay.

I don't know what to say.

I don't know what to do.

I keep saying I'm okay

At least I know I will be, I will.

But the fear is still there;

I don't want it to stare.

It pushes me down

One step, Two step

Down the road, down. Down.

Down down

Down the ladder

Being the latter.

I don't want to be there.

I'm not going down a single stair.

And the only way is to walk back.

To where it used to be.

I don't know actually!

All I know, is the cowardly me.

I'm scared, not brave

Sad, not happy

Quiet, not loud

Fragile, not strong

I'm in sinking sand,

Running away as fast as I can

I'm a coward, I am.

Evelyn

You know those people who act brave but they're really not brave at all...

I think I'm one of them. I'm scared. Very.

But it's a wonder how I can still act like I'm totally not scared at all.

Writing makes me feel much better eventhough I'm not good at it.

And I ought to go to sleep now. I'm working tomorrow.
I don't know what I deserve. I really don't know. I'M COLD.
SAY WHAAT? I'm just a bit confused.
No more.It stops here. WHEEEEEE.